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Apologizing for all the deviations, I just felt like uploading some photos I liked. Even though I hate to admit it, I am proud of some of the things I create.

I wish I still was.

I feel annoying and boring and unattractive. Just awful.

I don't think I can draw, or write, or photograph.

Listening to Pearl Jam now, just a few days after seeing them in concert, they sound poetic again. Something about Eddie Vedder live, through all the smoke, kind of disembodied my high opinion of him. I felt disappointed. But hearing The End and I Got Shit and Just Breathe, I understand again.

I have odd revelations, it's a problem.

So is my low self-esteem. It's always deteriorating by the end of the day.

Wonderful, even.

I just wish I understood it.

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I'm sick. I feel shitty. I want to see Wonderland. I like fragments and surveys.

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

And now that I've ignored most of those rules:

1. My voice has been going for the past twenty four hours. I caught a cold or virus or whooping lung or Malaysia.
2. I love sad songs.
3. Creep by Radiohead completely suits my life in this moment.
4. I'm not as religious as I used to be, but I'm Wiccan.
5. I've trained myself to believe the worst.
6. I write more than I let anyone know. I have an ongoing story that's two hundred and thirty something pages long.
7. I used to think I could hide my feelings.
8. The past preoccupies me.
9. I have brief periods infatuation with male actors. Johnny Depp, Zach Braff, Topher Grace, Danny Masterson, Joseph Gordon-Levitt.
10. I like quoting bands in my statuses and titles. Lyrics are usually sources of inspiration because I'm lame like that.